The things I hold
August 9, 2011
You know, the world can break you. Time passes, and pieces of yourself get lost in the shuffle of stupid choices, crushed hopes, disappointment, people who hurt you, you hurting yourself.
We spent our first year of marriage in utter insanity. I mean, I found out how seriously selfish I am. I found out how unlike me I was… how truly lost life can make you, and how you bring all of that into marriage. I thank many people for clinging to us, lifting us up in prayer, crowding around us and supporting us. But a huge part of what granted us peace over that year and the 2nd year (with baby coming) was our church and its pastors.
Greg did our pre-marriage counseling. And to his great credit, he followed us through year 1 and two with great gentleness and kindness. So days, when I feel like I might be crazy or I struggle to trust myself and I feel that slip of doubt – I speak to my soul. and remind myself that the people I trust have told me good things – and I let the truth speak louder than the ugly accusations of my own doubt.
